Struck Down, Not Destroyed: Keeping the Faith as a Vatican Reporter

A bold, inspiring call not to lose spiritual hope from a Vatican reporter who has seen the Catholic Church's darkness--but has learned that it cannot overpower the light

For too many Catholics, the darkness of creeping doubt, of drifting out into the spiritual cold of God's absence, is felt not outside the church but within it. With each of the church's moral failures--the sexual abuse, systematic mistreatment of women, shady financial management, its cozy relationships with corrupt political power―people lose faith or they wonder if they can, in good conscience, remain part of the church at all. For Catholic journalists who report on the church's failures in detail, the struggle to keep the faith can feel like an intolerable cognitive dissonance.

In Struck Down, Not Destroyed, Vatican reporter for America magazine Colleen Dulle takes readers for the first time into her own experience of reporting: how the church has put her own faith into crisis, and how she has managed to stay Catholic by meeting again and again the spiritual reality at the heart of the church--God and the saints. With each chapter, Dulle revisits her reporting on a church crisis, revealing to readers that in every instance of anger, betrayal, and hurt, she was ultimately renewed in hope, courage, and resolve.

Recounting efforts to pray honestly and finding herself yelling at God, attending Mass at churches where she was treated like the "wrong" kind of Catholic, or learning that one of her spiritual heroes was a sexual abuser, Dulle offers readers the gift of solidarity: they are not alone and there is hope. At the times when the church seemed merely human, just an institution for power and politicking, Dulle found herself spiritually upheld by difficult prayer, other faithful Catholics, fellow reporters, faithful priests, and, ultimately, God. Dulle holds out this same promise for readers. She provides no easy solutions, nor does she pretend to resolve the feelings of dissonance; instead, she passes on the courage she received with a vivid reminder that the church's faith is still worth believing in and fighting for.

Author: Colleen Dulle
Publisher: Image
Published: 08/12/2025
Pages: 176
Binding Type: Hardcover
Weight: 0.69lbs
Size: 8.25h x 5.50w x 0.44d
ISBN: 9780593728420

About the Author
Colleen Dulle is a multimedia journalist covering Catholic and Vatican news and analysis at America Media, where she hosts and produces the weekly news podcast Inside the Vatican. She has reported national and international news for Catholic News Service, the Associated Press, The Times-Picayune, and the St. Louis Review. Colleen's work has earned regional and national accolades from the Catholic Press Association, the Society of Professional Journalists and the Louisiana/Mississippi Associated Press Media Editors. She was twice named the Catholic Media Association Multimedia Journalist of the Year.