As Many Nows as I Can Get

A Seventeen Best Book of the Year
A New York Public Library Top Ten Best Book of the Year
A Kirkus Best Book of the Year

For fans of All the Bright Places and Looking for Alaska comes a daring, inventive story about love and loss and longing, reminding us that every choice can be a new chance. A dazzling, not-to-be-missed debut. --Kathleen Glasgow, author of Girl in Pieces

In one impulsive moment the summer before they leave for college, Scarlett and David plunge into a brief and irresistible swirl of romance, particle physics, and questionable decisions.

Scarlett and David have known each other all their lives in small-town Graceville, Colorado, where David is just another mountain in the background, until, one day, he is suddenly so much more than part of the scenery. Magnetic, spontaneous, David is a gravitational force. And Scarlett, pragmatic, wry, eye on the future, welcomes the pull he has on her even as she resists it.

Moving between the present and the past, this is the story of a seemingly grounded girl who's pulled into a lightning-strike romance with an electric-charged boy, and the enormity of the aftermath. Smart, bold, and emotionally deep, Shana Youngdahl's debut explores grief, guilt, and reconciling who you think you need to be with the person you've been all along. It's an aching, transporting reminder that between the past that shapes us and the unknowable future, we have only the present to forgive ourselves and forge ahead.

A story you won't forget. --Huntley Fitzpatrick, author of My Life Next Door
Mystery...Heartbreak...Hope...Readers will not be able to put this one down.--SLJ
Vivid --Seventeen.com
You'll speed read through [it] --PopSugar
John Green-like, intelligent and peppered with witty repartee --Booklist
Heartbreaking, exquisitely crafted --Estelle Laure, author of This Raging Light
Deeply authentic...Marvelously complex...Readers shouldn't miss [it] --Kirkus, starred review
A complex, compassionately written love story --PW
A definite purchase and must read.--VOYA
Perfect. --Book Page

Author: Shana Youngdahl
Publisher: Dial Books
Published: 08/20/2019
Pages: 432
Binding Type: Hardcover
Weight: 1.20lbs
Size: 8.30h x 5.80w x 1.50d
ISBN: 9780525553854
Audience: Young Adult


Review Citation(s):
Publishers Weekly 06/03/2019
Kirkus Reviews 06/15/2019 pg. 149
School Library Journal 08/01/2019 pg. 82
Voice of Youth Advocates 08/01/2019 - Recommended - Better Than Most

About the Author
Shana Youngdahl is a poet and author who teaches writing at the University of Maine at Farmington and directs the Longfellow Young Writers' Workshop. One of her greatest joys is helping people embrace the stories they need to tell. Shana lives with her husband, two daughters, and two cats in Maine. As Many Nows as I Can Get is her debut novel.