Silencing the Monster

Imagine that your worst nightmare has come true, when fantasy and reality collide. The moment you finally realize that you have a chronic and, more often, fatal disease that attacks your mind, and no one truly cares. Words without actions are simply just words. All because a diagnosis of any metal illness, either mild or severe, is still considered in today's society to be a "dirty secret best kept locked in a box buried in a dark place," you find yourself wondering what crime against humanity had you committed that you contracted a disease that will ultimately cost you everything and everyone?

The truth you find is that you did not make a choice to get it, that you are not a bad person, and that it simply chose you Quickly you come to the devastating realization that the ones you loved and trusted the most and that you thought would stand by you, comfort you, and see you through your battles with any illness start dropping like flies one by one until they are all gone. The best part is that on their way out of your life, most of them stab you in the back or directly in your face, betray you, and slander your name and credibility, leaving you with the feeling of worthlessness that morphs into self-medicating that then turns into full-blown addiction, which gives those same people even more ammunition to be used against you and to justify why you are no longer worthy or allowed to be a part of basic family living. No more happy holidays, no more phone calls, no more visits, you have now just become invisible, like your life never even existed. Only you have photographs to prove different.

It is now only you, your disease ("The Monster" inside your mind), and the dark place you hide; so that you no longer have to see or hear your own internal death and crucifixion from the ones that said they loved you the most. Does justice ever prevail? Is there a happily ever after at the end of the rainbow? Or is suicide really the only answer to end our pain and suffering from not being allowed to be a part of the elite, "normal society"?